Healing


Preface

When I was still studying primary school, Bishop Dominic Su (now Emeritus) often celebrated mass with healing session. During healing session, brothers and sisters in Christ who are suffered with sickness will walk to the stage, then the bishop and the other healing ministers will come to pray for them, and laid hands on them. Then, some brothers and sisters in Christ will fall down, looks like sleep or fainted, but the actual term is called “resting in the Spirit“. And some of them were crying. Based on what I know, crying is because of emotional wounds.

I also went up for the healing, because my mum said I have asthma, and I could pray to be healed. However, I didn’t experience anything special during the healing session.

 

Preface continue

Then when I was in secondary school, there was one time, I joint Life in the Spirit Seminar (LSS). Again, there was another healing session, conducted by other healing ministers. I remembered that, during the healing session, the lead healing minister prayed and said, let God heal our emotional wounds that happened in our past. “Almighty Jesus is able to go to our past and heal us” (something like this).

Then I suddenly remembered an incident that happened when I was a small kid, which I had forgotten. And this made me cried. That was my first time experiencing healing power of God. But I know that, remembering the incident and crying does not heal the wound immediately. There are more spiritual exercises have to be done after this. Remembering the incident is just an initial phase to face my wounded memory.

 

Healing power

I regret that I didn’t record down everything Emeritus Bishop Dominic Su had taught during homily (as I was a kid, and Bishop was using English and Foochow, I couldn’t understand). I can roughly remember several points about healing.

Bishop taught about spiritual therapy and Eucharistic therapy. Eucharistic therapy is the healing that we can pray when we receive the Holy Communion, and also during the Eucharistic adoration.

Bishop also taught about several spiritual gifts from God that we can use to fight against satanic power. I can’t remember all, but only the Blood of Christ as one of the gifts.

Meditation

As there are three types of prayers: vocal prayer, meditation, and contemplative prayer (CCC 2721), meditation involves imagination.

I can only remember two types of healing meditation that was used by the bishop. During the healing session, based on Psalm 52:12, “A clean heart create for me, God” (NAB version), Bishop guided us to imagine: Jesus takes out our old heart and throws away, and then gives us a new heart.

Another type of healing mediation is to imagine the Blood of Christ covers us, and cleanses our sickness away.

 

Emotional wounds

I believe that many people are wounded in many ways. As I mentioned in Preface, I didn’t cry during the healing session when I was a kid. But in fact, I was emotionally wounded when I was very young. You may think that you are healthy in every aspect, but this may not be true because you may be wounded but not remember.

There are emotional wounds that happened when a person was still in the womb. This is because, the infant in the womb can feel the surroundings and also can feel how the mother feels. That is why, if the pregnant mother has emotionally wounded, this will affect the infant’s emotion as well. (And we can read from the Scripture, what happened to John the Baptist when the mother meets Mary, the mother of our Lord.)

We are usually wounded by someone close to us: our parents, our brothers and sisters, or our spouse. After we are wounded, we will live in fear, or anger, or hatred, or any other negative emotions. We may not directly hate the person who hurt us, but there is hatred or anger deep down in our hearts.

We are easily hurt by people who are close to us, because we open our hearts to them. That is why, when we are scolded by the parents without wrongdoing, or tricked by brothers and sisters, or cheated by our spouse, these actions hurt us deep down in our hearts.

Because of the emotional wounds, our personality and perspective are distorted. Sometimes this causes us to hate ourselves. We can’t forgive ourselves, and just want to continue live in misery. Moreover, this may also cause sinful habits like gambling, drunkenness, shopaholic, pornography, etc.

 

Human’s love

This was taught by Bishop Dominic Su,

Human’s love is imperfect. We should not seek for the perfection in human’s love. We can only seek for the perfection in God’s love.

That is why, a lot of spouses, they are sweet in the beginning. Even the weaknesses of your spouse are sweet in your sight. But human’s love is imperfect. After some time, you will feel that the love from your spouse is imperfect. Then, you will dislike everything about your spouse, even the goodness.

 

Healing and forgiveness

Because humans are imperfect, we will hurt each other unintentionally. Your unintentional words or acts, they just hurt someone you love. That is why, we are all sinners. Then, we just cannot forgive ourselves, or we cannot forgive the one who has hurt us, and we live in misery every day. Live in fear, live in hatred, live in anger, live in jealousy.

Why don’t we change our life and live in happiness? We can’t. Because we are emotionally wounded. Because we feel that we are not worthy to live in happiness. Because we cannot let go our anger or hatred. Because we cannot forgive ourselves. Because we cannot forgive the one we have loved but he/she has cheated/ill-treated/hurt us. Because we want to let them feel the wound we have experienced. Because we want to revenge so that they will feel the same. Because we want to tell them how much we have loved them but what we received is not love.

The unforgiving is the reason that we live in misery.

If we want to be happy, we must be healed from emotional wounds. If we want to be healed from emotional wounds, we must forgive. We must forgive ourselves and the one who has hurt us. Only if we can forgive, then only we can love. But how do we love the one who has hurt us? Only if we are filled by the love of God, then only we can love others.

This is what I personally suggest: reading bible, prayers, meditation, confession (Sacrament of Penance), and Holy Communion (Sacrament of the Eucharist). These are important for the healing and forgiveness. Please look for the priests or healing ministers if necessary.

Personal experience

I meditated, and I found that I was filled with hatred and anger. What can I do? I prayed for the healing and forgiveness: the healing of my emotional wound and the strength of forgiveness. But it it too difficult for me to forgive, because the wound is too deep.

I found that, in my anger, I keep thinking about “myself” and feeling how “I” was hurt. So, at the end, this is how I prayed to the Lord,

Lord Jesus, please let “me” “die”, so that “I” feel no sadness, hatred, and anger. And Lord, please live in place of me, so that this new me can forgive and love others.

If I cannot forgive, it would be better for the Lord to create a new “me”. What I need to do is to give up my “self”.

 

Questions

Q: Is the healing power psychological or spiritual?

If you are an atheist, you don’t believe in God, then you will think that, a person is healed because the psychological effect, similar to the hypnosis. The meditation is just a tool of self-hypnosis.

But I answer, Christians and atheists have a fundamental difference: God and god-less. Christians believe in an omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, and omnibenevolent God, Who is able to heal a man psychologically and spiritually. That is why, when meditation, Christians are able to focus on God who is perfect.

But an atheist can only believe in self or psychologists. Therefore, if they are meditating, they can only focus on something imperfect.

Q: Is the healing power science or miracle?

I answer, the Almighty God creates this physical world. Therefore, He is able to heal the men through the way that can be scientifically explained. He is Almighty. Therefore, He is also able to heal with miraculous power, that cannot be explained by science.

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“三”


今天写一篇无聊的。“小三”就是这些年来普通的词汇。普通到我还听说,做小三或包养小三其实很普通。令我叹为观止。

以前,我听过的就是情妇、二奶、或是小老婆。但这些词渐渐地被小三所取代。不明所以。

目前我看过两种小三。一种是虚荣派,另一种是爱情派。虚荣派很简单。条件就是钱。如果有车,有房子更好。最重要的就是满足虚荣心。有些要求比较多,不只要钱,能够给个地位,让她炫富炫耀,那才能满足她的虚荣。当然,名牌手机是不可缺少的。这种小三其实不会规定一个对象。只要能够满足她们的虚荣,谁都可以。

哪另一种爱情派的,就比较有趣。她们的爱情观非常扭曲。就是觉得,一个男人为了她而放弃自己本来的婚姻,这种爱情才是伟大的。如果全世界的人都在谩骂,也没有人祝福他们俩的爱情,她反而觉得他们的爱情经得起考验,情比金坚。这种类型的,她会愿意为对方做任何牺牲,可以一直等待对方的回应,等待对方履行所许下过的承诺。当然,人不可能傻傻地等待。毕竟青春会逐渐消失。如果一直等都等不到,后果我就不清楚了。毕竟女人心海底针。

真正的爱情应该是,在法律上是合法的婚姻,亲朋戚友所公认的,并有爱情的果实,然后直到死亡将他们俩分开。能够实现以上的条件,绝对比那爱情派所谓的情比金坚,至死不渝还要艰难。

苦海无涯,回头是岸。

看完《延禧攻略》的感想


最近看了中国剧《延禧攻略》,非常过瘾。是难得一见的好剧。跟其它的虎头蛇尾的电视剧有天壤之别。看了好多部中国剧,尤其是古装剧,很多都是前面精彩,结尾莫名其妙。要不就男主死了,要不就女主死了,不然就突然又出现。没有交代,没有解释清楚。所以,通常我不会对结局有任何期待。

看这《延禧攻略》的主要原因,就是一直看到相关的新闻,然后就是其中一个角色是由佘诗曼饰演。她当年所饰演的周芷若,让我一见倾心。

而这部《延禧攻略》的主角“魏璎珞”(由吴谨言饰演),是整部剧的核心。这部剧,其实套路简单。敌人用计——主角视破——主角将计就计——敌人中计——敌人惨败。差不多每一段剧情都是这般流程。而到后期的故事,就没有什么好看的了,因为基本上骗的是观众。就是那种,将计就计到主角貌似很惨的样子。

而整部剧又像一部侦探剧。因为女主角入宫的目的就是要查明自己姐姐的死因。然后报仇。从头到尾就是报仇。前半部的流程,基本上就像 Power Ranger 一样。敌人的小喽啰献计给大头目。然后大头目开始用计陷害女主角或她身边的人。然后女主角像名侦探一样,分析敌人的动机,然后将计就计解除危机,拯救所有人。到结局都是如此。

说回“魏璎珞”这个角色,人物塑造得非常好。基本上是无敌的。反正有她在,就没有问题了。就像奥特曼(Ultraman)的存在一样,一出现就能拯救地球的样子。是没有弱点,不感情用事,聪明过人的一个人物。这些都不是重要的。最重要的就是,爱恨分明。是对敌人没有一丝手软的家伙。我想这就是为何那么多人的喜爱这部剧的原因。

在现实社会中,哪有几个人能够做到爱恨分明?明明看你的上司不顺眼,你还是需会对他说几句奉承的好话。被同事冷嘲热讽,哪敢走过去搧他几个耳光。而剧里的“魏璎珞”,就会帮你把生活中的恶人全部都灭了。所以看了,就大呼过瘾。

然后,故事里的剧情,就是看主角如何解决所有的问题。所以观众才会不断追剧。

另外。这部剧,对我而言,是没有男主角的。主角就女主角一人。其他都是配角。而爱情部分,是非常少的,而且都被我跳过了。基本上,爱情是不必要的。因为女主角的存在,只有一个目的,就是报仇,也是报恩。

总结:难得好剧!

个人的圣经精华:悲苦篇


以下纯属个人使用而写的。字句出自《思高译本》(Studium Biblicum)。

虛而又虛,萬事皆虛。(Eccles 1:2)
人生有太多的不如意。而能夠讓我堅持到現在,就是聖經。
這聖經能使你憑著那在基督耶穌內的信德,獲得得救的智慧。(1 Tim 3:15)
凡受天主默感所寫的聖經,為教訓、為督責、為矯正、為教導人學正義,都是有益的。(1 Tim 3:16)
磨難生忍耐,忍耐生老練,老練生望德。(Rom 5:3-4)

若瑟被自己的兄弟出賣,但他後來對自己的兄弟說:
「你們原有意對我作的惡事,天主卻有意使之變成好事,造成了今日的結果:挽救了許多人民的性命。」( Gen 50:20)
猶太人被陷害,摩爾德開向艾斯德爾說:
「誰知你之所以得涉足朝廷,不正是為了挽救現在的危機呢!」(Esth 4:14)
主論及那生來瞎眼的人,對門徒們說:
「也不是他犯了罪,也不是他的父母,而是為叫天主的工作,在他身上顯揚出來。」(Jn 9:3)
保祿宗徒曾三次求主使〔他身體上的一根剌〕脫離〔他〕。但主對他說:
「有我的恩寵為你夠了,因為我的德能在軟弱中纔全顯出來。」(2 Cor 12:9)

我們必須經過許多困難,纔能進入天主的國。(Acts 14:22)
〔我〕們不可與此世同化,反而應以更新的心思變化自己,為使〔我〕們能辨別什麼是天主的旨意,什麼是善事,什麼是悅樂天主的事,什麼是成全的事。(Rom 12:2)
在人前是崇高的事,在天主前卻是可憎的。(Lk 16:15)
天主的愚妄總比人明智,天主的懦弱也總比人堅強。(1 Cor 1:25)
那是上主的所行所為,在我們眼中神妙莫測。(Ps 118:23)
天主的看法與人不同:人看外貌,上主卻看人心。(1 Sam 16:7)
鍋煉銀,爐煉金,上主煉人心。(Prov 17:3)

我實在以為現時的苦楚,與將來在我們身上要顯示的光榮,是不能較量的。(Rom 8:18)
我們這現時輕微的苦難,正分外無比地給我們造就永遠的光榮厚報,(2 Cor 4:17)
因為我們並不注目那看得見的,而只注目那看不見的;那看得見的,原是暫時的;那看不見的,纔是永遠的。(2 Cor 4:18)
〔我〕們所受的試探,無非是普通人所能受的試探;天主是忠信的,他決不許〔我〕們受那超過〔我〕們能力的試探,天主如加給人試探,也必開一條出路,叫〔我〕們能夠承擔。(1 Cor 10:13)
如果我們不忠信,他仍然是忠信的,因為他不能否認自己。(2 Tim 2:13)
〔我〕們與罪惡爭鬥,還沒有抵抗到流血的地步。(Heb 12:4)
今天該聽從他的聲音:「不要再像在默黎巴那樣心頑,也不要像在曠野中瑪撒那天!」(Ps 95:7-8)

我的天主,我的天主,你為什麼捨棄了我?你又為什麼遠離我的懇求,和我的哀號。(Ps 22:2)
我的天主,我白天呼號,你不應允;我黑夜哀禱,你仍默靜。(Ps 22:3)
天主,求你快來救我,上主,求你速來助我。(Ps 70:2)

上主,求你不要在你的震怒中責罰我,求你不要在你的氣憤中懲戒我。(Ps 38:2)
因了你的盛怒,我已體無完膚;因了我的罪行,我已粉身碎骨。(Ps 38:4)
因為我的罪過高出我的頭頂,好似重擔把我壓得過分沉重。(Ps 38:5)
天主,求你按照你的仁慈憐憫我,依你豐厚的慈愛,消滅我的罪惡。(Ps 51:3)
求你把我的過犯洗盡,求你把我的罪惡除淨,(Ps 51:4)
因為我認清了我的過犯,我的罪惡常在我的眼前。(Ps 51:5)
我得罪了你,惟獨得罪了你,因為我作了你視為惡的事。(Ps 51:6)
天主,求你給我再造一顆純潔的心,求你使我心重獲堅固的精神。(Ps 51:12)
求你不要從你的面前把我拋棄,不要從我身上將你的聖神收回。(Ps 51:13)

以色列人在荒野中抱怨没有肉吃。而天主回答梅瑟說:
「難道上主的手短了?你就要看見我對你說的話是否應驗。」(Num 11:23)
裝置耳朵的,難道自己聽不著,製造眼睛的,難道自己看不到?(Ps 94:9)
你愛一切所有,不恨你所造的;如果你憎恨什麼,你必不會造它。(Wis 11:25)
亞巴郎从命獻子的時候,亞巴郎說道:「天主自會照料」。(Gen 22:8)
不要憂慮說:我們吃什麼,喝什麼,穿什麼?因為這一切都是外邦人所尋求的;你們的天父原曉得你們需要這一切。你們先該尋求天主的國和它的義德,這一切自會加給你們。(Mt 31-33)
約伯遭受到各種不幸之事後,他的妻子對他說:
「你還保持你的完善嗎?你倒不如詛咒天主,死了算了!」(Job 2:9)
約伯答說:
「難道我們只由天主那裡接受恩惠,而不接受災禍嗎?」(Job 2:10)
你們得不到,是因為你們不求;你們求而不得,是因為你們求的不當,想要浪費在你們的淫樂中。(James 4:2-3)
你們不要為那可損壞的食糧勞碌,而要為那存留到永生的食糧勞碌。(Jn 6:27)
將你們的一切掛慮都託給他,因為他必關照你們。(1 Pet 5:7)
在加納婚宴的時候,主的母親對他說:
「他們沒有酒了。」(Jn 2:3)
後又給僕役說:
「他無論吩咐你們什麼,你們就作什麼。」(Jn 2:5)

父啊!你如果願意,請給我免去這杯罷!但不要隨我的意願,惟照你的意願成就罷!(Lk 22:42)

学海无涯


我读书的时候,曾想过,如果当不了皇帝,当个寨主也许胜过当皇帝。掌管个山寨,总比掌管个天下来得容易。

但现在想法变了。主要原因就是,若要自立门户,也没有随从。而去投靠其它山寨,也没有机会当寨主。

经过社会的历练,山寨这种东西也就是乌合之众。就算当个寨主,以我的才智,也是浪费。人外有人,天外有天。浪迹天涯提升自己的智慧才适合我。

如果你是班级里的第一,不要自满。因为也许你只是在一个程度低下的班级里。如果你在全校里的实力是第一,不要自满。因为也许你只是在一个程度一般的学校里。当然,并不是要你成为天下之最,而是要你保持谦卑的心态。谦卑不是虚伪,而是意识到自己实在地不是最棒,意识到自己的缺点。唯有保持这种学海无涯的心态,方能不断取长补短。

如果觉得自己在某方面已经是很厉害了,就应当接触外面的世界。那样,你才能够看到自己其实在外面的世界,也不过是个凡夫俗子。

遇到比你厉害的人,就应当虚心受教。当然会遇到一些稍微比你厉害,但极度嚣张且自满的人。遇到这样的人,不需要特别厌恶,因为如果你是谦卑的,轻而易举就能够超越他。因为他的自满,阻碍了自己的成长。不进则退。所有自满的人,久而久之就会被淘汰。

要让自己变成想黑洞一样,才能不断扩大。

入乡随俗与原则


有些人做事有条有理,非常有原则,有责任感。但个人认为,在工作环境下,“入乡随俗”还是必要的。如果为了坚守自己的原则,在工作上力求完善,但若在悲催的工作环境下,那只有自讨苦吃。

在不堪的工作环境中,若还要坚守自己所谓的原则,觉得这样做或那样做会对不起自己,这种思想只会给自己带来各种工作压力。这种思想是极度顽固、愚昧的。所谓“适者生存”。在这种与自身原则不符的工作环境下,要不就早早离开,要不然就入乡随俗,违背自己的良心苟且生存。二选一。

当然,会遇到如此不堪的工作环境,基本上是微乎其微。但也不是没有如此的工作环境。本人就见识过。

在一般的工作环境,有原则是很要的。这能够显示出你对工作的态度,个人的性格,认真和责任感。这些好的原则能够提升工作成果,因为有要求,有目标。

但在恶劣的工作环境,如渣滓般的上司,还有不负责任和推卸责任的同事,不合作的各个部门,无能的管理层,废到掉渣的人事部,一无所知的新员工和一无所知的总管,要在这样的环境下生存,就必须不负责任,推卸责任(这就是为何同事们都是这样的工作态度)。适者生存。能够在这种环境中生存,主要的原则就是“废”。

运动会


话说我中学的时候,应该是Form 1吧,学校有运动会。因为小时候就有哮喘。比如跑步跑太久,就会呼吸困难,困难到好像吸不到气的感觉。所以从小都不是运动的料。

然后,就那个学校的运动会,班级的体育老师就安排每个学生都参与一项运动。我忘了啥原因,被安排5000米(5 km)长跑。然后回家时跟我娘说。结果,我被教训了一顿。理由是,我不知是哪来的自信,觉得自己能够跑5000米。但最主要是面子问题,班上的同学基本上都有一项运动,而我娘却不让我参加。她的理由就是,我有哮喘,不能做激烈的运动。

然后那时我就领悟了一个道理。人一生都是没有自由的,没有选择的权力。所以唯一能做的,就是随遇而安。

但现在,我有更深的领悟:

  • 正是我的无能,才没有了选择的能力。接受自己的无能之处,才能取长补短。
  • 面子算什么。只不过是自己的虚荣罢了。拿来有*用。
  • 那时我妈用了那句经典台词:她吃的盐比我吃的米多。第一,的确她是对的,我那时实在无知。第二,在我丰富的人生上,我也可以以这句话告诫后辈。

最后,我不擅长运动,还不是日子一样过。中学的体育课真的是莫名其妙。幸好体育项目不在升学考试的评估里。不然,我就哀哉了。